At the relatively young age of 41, I was diagnosed with advanced cancer. What happens when we find out that the life we have taken for granted may soon end? What do we do with the flood of questions and emotions that pour in? “How can this be happening to me?” we ask in disbelief. “Why?”
Turning down proposed radical surgeries, I focused my attention on attempting to come to a place of peace before dying. In the process I experienced complete healing and a return to radiant health. The profound healing I discovered was not about surviving physical illness. It was about deepening a spiritual reality separate from and much greater than the body. It was a bigger picture perspective of healing - not just the cessation of symptoms, but the deep spiritual healing that can come whether we leave this body or remain with a more expanded awareness.
Early in my journey I began writing a book, Dying Well to help navigate the journey ahead. It included 12 steps to dying well. After fully recovering, the book was published as Profound Healing. I had found that the steps to dying well were the same steps for living well. Subsequent reflections on physical, emotional and spiritual healing were summarized into twelve self-help practices so that others might use these insights as a source of hope, inspiration, and practical advice.
It isn’t enough to pray for a miracle. We have to take responsibility for making good choices - life and health enhancing choices - and acting on them. Once we've done all we can for ourselves, then we can leave the results in higher hands.
A certain attitude emerged in new age thought that we create our own illness. Of course we are subject to the consequences of poor choices. If we smoke for example, we’re gambling with the possibility of lung cancer. We also know that strong emotions can create chemical reactions in the body that can have certain physical effects. Laughter and love, on the positive side, are said to release endorphins and chemicals that boost the immune system and create a sense of well-being. Ongoing resentment, rage and grief, on the other hand, deplete the immune system and can lead to illness or debility in some area.
Our lives are often so cluttered and busy that we find ourselves racing to keep up. What we lose are the simple basics of life that provide the balance we desperately need: walks in nature, unhurried time with our loved ones, precious quiet time alone for meditation or reading or just being mindfully grateful for the many gifts around us. Changes don’t have to happen overnight but if your life is tied up, start loosening the knots.
It’s common to feel isolated when facing a life-threatening or debilitating condition, even when surrounded by loved ones. We need and can appreciate the support from family and friends but we also need support from more neutral sources, who can hear what we’re feeling without being hurt or shocked, or who have had similar experiences. A supportive counselor can be invaluable, as can a support group with empowering guidelines.
Beliefs and attitudes can become so embedded in our subconscious minds that it’s easy to lose sight of them. We can even hold conflicting beliefs without being aware of it. The words we use to communicate are symbols of our internal beliefs and as we pay attention to the words we use – and the thoughts we think – we may discover attitudes and beliefs within ourselves that don’t support our healing.
Forgiveness is often one of the hardest things to practice but it is a powerful means of personal transformation. Forgiveness and letting go doesn’t mean condoning the hurtful or violent actions of others. It means that we no longer allow ourselves to be victims of those actions by holding them to us. Although it can be a holy or altruistic act, forgiveness is more often an act of self-empowerment, as it frees us from the bonds that tie us so we can move on.
Paying attention to how we spend our energy can provide major clues in the process of healing. Certain emotions, such as blame, guilt, anger or fear, that we return to again and again, can literally drain our life force and leave little or nothing to fuel the immune system. Unlike the burst of fear or adrenaline that temporarily fires us up to respond quickly in an emergency situation – a kind of energy that is easily replenished – the ongoing burdens of guilt and blame over what was, or fear of what may be, is draining. Holding on to negative feelings is simply an exhausting expenditure of energy that can lead to emotional and physical bankruptcy.
One of the biggest stressors we can put on ourselves is trying to control situations or outcomes that are out of our hands. We strain with all of our might to push the unmovable mountain out of our path instead of putting our energy into what we are able to do in a given situation. A life-threatening illness or catastrophic event can be such a mountain. We can drain our energy trying to get it out of our way, or we can forge a path around the mountain or perhaps climb the heights where we may find an extraordinary view of life from a new perspective.
Whenever a difficulty or problem confronts us, we can break it down into components - the parts we can do something about, and those we can release. There is a solution to every difficulty we encounter, a way through or around or over the top of the mountain. We have incredible potential and creativity within us, just waiting to be tapped.
In order to be at peace with ourselves we need to come from a place of personal integrity. We are living at a challenging time. The laws of personal integrity are so routinely bent all around us that many have lost sight of what it means to live with integrity – even with regard to ourselves. In that sense, any difficulty that comes along offers an opportunity or reminder to step back and take a deeper look into life and the role we are playing. How well do we really know and trust ourselves? The best way to establish a sense of trust in life and safety in relationships is to practice personal integrity. It doesn’t matter what someone else is doing. What matters is how we choose to live our own lives.
Intuition is not a gift that some people have and others don’t. It’s a built in system that we all have, but just as muscles atrophy from lack of use, it simply stops working if we don’t pay attention. Intuition is that first gut feeling we have about something. It is a connection to an inner wisdom that comes with clarity and knowing. There is no confusion about it. Intuition doesn’t come from the ego. It can be distinguished from a reaction of fear or compulsion in that it is not based on emotions and it is always in sync with the highest spiritual principals. If, however, we allow the rational mind to jump in and negate intuition with its logic and beliefs before we act on it, the power of this source of personal wisdom goes unrecognized and the intuitive signals slip beneath the surface of our conscious awareness.
It sounds simple enough to love ourselves, but all too often we become so wrapped up in feelings of low self-esteem that it isn’t easy to do. Most of us carry around an inner critical voice. Considering this, most of us could benefit from consciously directing our inner dialogue to be that of an encouraging parent. An interesting thing about learning to give ourselves unconditional love is that it creates an opening that lets others in more fully.
A healing environment is the foundation upon which we can live our lives more fully present and alive, and the place to start constructing that environment is within. When our minds are cluttered, our external environment tends to become cluttered. Everything in our experience is influenced by the state of our mind, and the state of our mind is something we can have some control over. The mind is the first place that change begins. We create order out of chaos by bringing our focus inside and moving deeper into that centered place where we connect with all of the resources we have accumulated and expanded throughout our lives. As we move deeper into that inner sanctuary, we connect with our inner teacher and to the highest source of insight and wisdom and guidance - God or source or universal grace - the divinity that resides within everyone.